Journey Home

What do you do
When you're a long way from home,
Though living the adventure
Of a soul born to roam?

What keeps you going
When dreams turn to smoke?
Where you are dosen't matter
When your heart starts to choke.

When adventure seems empty
And loniliness desends,
When you find you're surrounded
By strangers, not friends?

But back from the journey
The familiar's still wrong,
As empty as you left it
And your heart turns to stone.

Becki
1/23/09

Slow Burn

No explosion of passion to mark its birthing.
No frenzy and flash as it consumes all in its path.
No desperate clinging as it resists the finale.
No wild prairie wind to make it race against the sky.
No dry brittle grass to feed its flame and intensity.
No suffocating smoke turning everything to ash.

This fire that was started by an unintended spark
Was deliberately banked and covered to put out,
But continued to smolder deep down in the heart
Until one day a whisper rose up from the ash
And steadily grew to a simple campfire.
No flash, no greed, no desire to consume,
Only a simple warming camp light,
Destructive element tamed now by love.
Learning to accept its life as it burns
Here only to give, and then to go out.

01/09/09

Crossroads

Funny how I thought I knew
What love and pain were all about?
I swore that no matter what
I would not pass this way again.
To guard my heart was my intent
To keep it safe within myself
But somehow in the unplanned night
I lost it without meaning to
Only to find it shattered in pieces
Dropped by hands that never meant to harm
Three times in my life
I have written this poem
First in college, then the Upper Room,
But I never dreamed that it all could end
When trying so hard to do what was right?
It is for the best, I know that’s true
I am not what he needs to fill his life
And he would be so sad to know
That he was the reason for this pain.
So I will do my best to hold my tongue
And never tell him how I feel,
But how do I find the strength to face tomorrow
Or the day after that
When the last of my hope
Walked out the door and never looked back?
Selfish I know to think of myself,
But facing the shadows in the endless night
Without any light to give me hope
I find not the strength to rise above
Drowning in an ocean of loss and alone in the dark.
I only have one thing left to hold
My faith that God will end this pain
And will somehow bring back the light.
For time, despite the words old wives would bring,
Does not heal wounds that go this deep
And only God can bring me peace.

01/01/09

Fun with Haiku

Just playing around :)

Hot the blood tonight
Lunna's call we must obey
Free, the pack now hunts.


Magic coffee bean
My kingdom for coffee and
intravenous drip.


Throats pierced with darkness
Born of eternal shadow
Mistress of the night.


Mane and tail flying
Symmetry and grace defined
Essence of freedom.


Poised atop the world
When only tails are twitching
Hit and run attack.

Rebecca

The Dark Road Taken

What doubt the night that never ends,
Seems to feed into my soul.
The peddled wheels spin round and round
Traveling a road I cannot see.

The choice was always mine to make
It seemed to me the way to truth
Unlike the illusion of dim streetlights
And worth the sacrifice to be made.

I want to claim I didn't know
The path I chose would be this dark.
Except to say that is a lie
Gad made it clear at the journey's start.

The dream I was living wasn't real
And the way to truth a ragged road
With hidden pits that were dark and deep
Cutting through a forest filled with night.

But the choice was always mine to make
And I thought the price was worth the cost
So I faced the dark road and my tears
Sure I would make it to journey's end.

In false humility and arrogant pride
With a touch of fear with determined set
Trusting first in my own strength
God's only job to point the way.

But I never dreamed this journey's path
Long past hope and signs of life
Exhausted muscles faltering from strain,
And the heart stuttering in unbearable emptiness.

That I would find myself still on the road
Alone in the dark with but a memory of hope
Struggling to understand and overcome.
With nothing, but faith to hold me true.

And so, I keep riding and cannot look back
God grants me strength at the end of myself
And I ride in the darkness if need be forever
My only companion a memory of hope.

Rebecca
10/29/07

The Dark Road

Standing on the edge of town
Pausing underneath the last glow of light
Looking down the road
That fades into impenetrable darkness.

The choice has always been mine to make
To stay within the light or travel forth
Into the dark forest with only my faith
And a dim small light to show each single step.

I am so tired and the distance so far
Yet I cannot wait for help to come
And the comfort of the streetlight
Is merely an illusion that brings no warmth.

But the choice has always been mine to make.
As I look at the crumbling road before me
That disappears into the night
Winding through an unknown wood.

To many, their roads are full of light
And hearty companions share the way
But I must not yearn for what is not mine
And accept the path that was meant for me.

I know not where the road will take me
Or how the journey will finely end.
But this is the road I have been given
And the choice is mine to go or stay

As I leave the circle of the light I know
To step into the endless night.
For greater than my fear in the lonely dark road
Is my trust in God to lead me true.

Rebecca 06/23/07

Waiting for Love

A title wave,
With all the depths behind it,
Balancing on the edge of hope,
Waiting to sweep across all that is,
And change the world forever.

A glacier mountain,
Frozen on the edge of eternity,
Tiny fissures racing through the mass,
Desperately holding on for the moment
When the time to fall is right.

Molten magma,
Boiling beneath the earth,
Raging and pushing to be released.
Waiting for that final explosion,
When the earth meets the sky
And fireworks fill the air.
Burning and consuming
Everything in its path.

The calm before the storm.
When even the air is afraid to breathe.
Poised on the brink
Where power sizzles,
A promise of what is to come.

Rebecca